Welcome to the emotional rollercoaster that is my life.

I am so bipolar!!!  This morning I am riding high on changing my situation by purging the "stuff" out of my home and life...((remember that))...Now I am sitting at the bottom of the emotional rollercoaster going "Awww man the ride is over!  My life sucks!"  What is wrong with me??  Well maybe I got it right in the beginning of this post.  Finding out if that is true won't happen anytime soon.  Doctors charge money for their services.  A commodity that I am a little short of at the moment.  Sorry.  I'm doing it again.  Being negative.  How do optimistic people maintain such a positive outlook?  Is it just natural or do they get a little extra dose of it during childhood?  The important thing for me is that I need to figure this out quickly or I will go crazy from the mental strain.  So...I guess it's time to pay attention to what is going on when I get negative and, alternately, when I get positive.  A little understanding of the causes will help arrange for different effects.  Isn't that how psychologists do it?  Find out what makes me tick and change it.  Talk is cheap!  You know the whole "talk the talk or walk the walk" bit.  Or "easier said than done".  Oops!  There I go being negative again.  Aaugh!  How do positive people do this!!!!!  When I quit smoking all it took was to throw the cigarettes away.  Basically I decided to just quit.  Why can't I "decide" to do this and just do it?  This is that same "comfort zone" crap I have been hearing about for years.  Who feels comfortable like this???  How can anyone feel comfortable being an emotional wreck all the time?  I certainly don't!  Enough of this garbage for now.  I have to think about this some more.  Ttfn.